I was diagnosed in May 2010.
My diagnosis level was 566 and my A1C was 14.8 as well my cholesterol
level was 1530.
All the warning signs were there but I was the typical man, I either
paid no attention to it or explained it all away.
The warning signs were there.
I can EASILY name 10 people in my immediate family who are diabetic
and only cover two generations.
My father, his 7 siblings, my sister, his grandmother and great
grandmother, 5 of my first cousins, my mother's 3 brothers, her
mother, both her grandparents.
The main warning sign, for me, was there, but it couldn't come home to
roost in my hair.
I had been laid off in Oct 2009 and had no prospects.
The government kept playing their party politics games and cutting my
unemployment benefits off so I had dealt with it as I only knew how.
I cut back on my eating so my wife and daughter could have more.
At a family gathering my wife's uncle remarked on how much weight I'd lost.
I reasoned it away chalking it up to not having much to eat.
Then my vision started acting weird.
Some days it was good, some days I woke up and had like a fog in my
eyes and I couldn't blink it away. I had just turned 41 so I chalked
it up to the falling apart forties.
I came down with an insatiable thirst and craving for sweets.
We had decided that life was tough enough, so we bought season passes
to an amusement park for some stress relief. It's a challenging place
as it's built around a couple of ridges and it's uphill all the way.
We had spent a lot of time in the park and the weather had been warmer
than usual, so I explained this one away as well.
Then came THE weekend.
I had spent the entire weekend on the couch asleep.
I couldn't stay awake no matter what I did or tried to do.
My wife called two of her best friends, one's daughter is diabetic and
the other is the child of a diabetic, and they urged her to test my
sugar.
We did and the shock of the reality began setting in.
A trip to the emergency room confirmed it.
The dr ordered me a treatment with insulin and told me that I wasn't
just sleepy, I had actually been slipping into and out of a diabetic
coma.
My first "counsellor" was my mother.
Now, I love my mother, such a heart of gold you'll not find in any
other person, BUT she doesn't have much tact. Her first words to me
were "son, just how long do you want to live?"
Here I sat, scared to death, almost blind, and now this?
I'll have to admit to two things.
It pissed me off and I cried.
Her next words explained WHY she started off like she did but I could
have done without the first sentence!! She rubbed my shoulders as I
sobbed and crying herself said,"because how you eat from now on will
determine how long AND how well you live."
I've never forgotten those words, and have made them part of my diabetic creeds.
I eventually went totally blind from the glucose crystals in my eyes.
Due to the government playing their games, I had state sponsored
insurance for one month and it "just happened" to be the month of my
diagnosis.
I saw an optometrist who told me I was legally blind, but that my
vision would return in time as my body absorbed the excess glucose.
While I was blind, I could see.
It was like looking through a frosted pane of glass. I couldn't make
anything out.
Not even my daughter's face though we were nose to nose.
He told me to get a strong pair of reading glasses and wait for my
vision to clear up a bit.
With the glasses I could see but still not enough to read or watch tv.
I also saw a podiatrist and had my feet tested and some ingrown
toenails removed.
When I could begin to see with the glasses, I began walking on our driveway.
4 round trips is a mile, so I walked it 4 times, twice daily.
When I could see better, I began walking the roads around our home.
12 miles a week, up and down some pretty good sized ridges.
I took my medication EXACTLY as prescribed.
Did my exercise, EVERYDAY
Adhered RIGIDLY to my diet my CDE gave me.
and the numbers responded. They began dropping, and getting closer to
that normal range.
I finally found a job in April 2011 and it's very physical so I don't
exercise as I did, but exercise will drop my numbers when I have an
occasional high number.
I educated myself on the disease through books and the internet.
Learned more about it than most doctors know, because I live with it everyday.
Little by little my glucose kept behaving well.
My dr cut my metformin dosage from 2000 mg daily to 1000, then to 500.
I saw it happening and was so relieved that I tolerated the stomach
issues it caused for almost 3 and a half years, I was afraid they'd
put me on something new and it wouldn't work so I kept my mouth shut
about the cramps and the potty house trips.
In october 2013, I came down with a stomach flu.
It lasted a week. A trip to the emergency room, some pills and I
seemed to be better.
A week later, it returned, and I stopped taking my medication and
cranked down on my food intake AND my glucose checks.
I was pleasantly surprised that the numbers remained level.
I saw my regular physician two weeks later and told him the story and
what I'd done.
He wasn't enthusiastic about my stopping the medication AND I DO NOT
RECOMMEND IT, however, he said we would try managing it with just
dietary control and exercise.
He wrote me an emergency script to keep at home and turn in if my
numbers rose again.
I never turned it in and I've not taken any medication since.
Today, my levels remain in the normal range for those without diabetes, 80-130.
My A1C at my last check up was 5.9
and my logbook app estimates my current level as 5.2.
My first low spell led to another motto.
I saw their faces as I shook like a leaf in a hurricane.
I saw them whispering and gawking at me.
I saw myself saying things to the ones I love most that broke their hearts.
The next day, my wife wanted to return to finish our shopping, but I was afraid.
I didn't want to risk becoming a spectacle again.
But then it dawned on me, I couldn't let that hold me back.
John Wayne said about his battle with cancer, Courage is being scared
to death, but saddling up anyway. I saddled up that day and
determined that I would not surrender one aspect of my life to
diabetes.
Not my home, not my body, not my family, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!
I may have diabetes, but diabetes doesn't have me!
I came into this world in a screaming tear and I intend of living
life, long and loud!!
While I was laid off I researched my family history and found that I
have a long history in Scotland through Clan Armstrong.
Their clan motto is Invictus Maneo, I remain unconquered.
Today, I have adopted their motto as my warcry against diabetes.
Whatever works!!
Whatever it takes!!
I am and intend to remain UNCONQUERED!!!
This is my wish for you
I hope you see in my story that you must fight for your life against
this scourge.
That if you do, you may see and I pray you do, the same results I've seen.
That we must never back down and surrender one bit of our lives to diabetes.
that it IS possible for diabetes to be well maintained and controlled
without medication.
But you must do your part!!
You must decide to do whatever works and whatever it takes!
Some folk have trouble taking their medication. It's just a pill or a
shot, but if that's what it takes to live a "normal" life, so be it!
I'd rather not have to, but whatever works, whatever it takes is what
I've decided to do!!
Shoulder to shoulder
Hand in hand
One day, one battle at a time, we'll get through this and we will remain
UNCONQUERED!!!
Dwayne is a member of the type 2 diabetes support group